a sad comeback

lama dah x menjenguk blog, sampai nk klik sign in...dlm hati terdetik...eh apa password nye ek. hahahaa. mmg x der alasan kali nie...i choose to take a break from writing here...sbb i sibuk main cityville =D

well...i'm back...with a sad story unfortunately...

on 10th Feb 2012...its confirmed that nizam and i lost our 1st baby...i had a miscarriage...probably on 9th...sbb time tu i dah start bleeding.

we went to see Dr.Delaila Ahmad SDMC,Subang Jaya...on 9th & 10th buat blood test for hormon level, my hcg level menurun...maksudnye baby confirmed dah x der. sepanjang pregnancy, hcg levels kita mesti naik setiap hari. masa tu agak speechless... trus doc suruh admitted ....

i cried....bukan sbb we lost the baby....tp sbb i takot masuk ward,kena masuk IV....and the idea that you were put to sleep while they do the procedure. but if I were awake during the procedure...i guess it would be horrific! i could scream my lungs out. hahahaa.

kitorang dah nangis puas puas about losing the baby...on 9th. nizam kept on asking me...sure ke x der dah. i'm sure of it...because the bleeding didn't even stop.

Alhamdulillah...after 2 hours (according to Nizam) i came out the OT safely,groggy and last but not least...babyless...(T__T)

kesian Nizam the last meal he had was nasi lemak....at 5pm barulah dia pg lunch...he waited 2  hours outside the OT. My parents, my aunt and cousins....accompany me while Nizam get a bite to eat....then, came my mother in law and family, my waiting to pop cousin, followed by my brother and my best friend...hehehe....Alhamdulillah...i'm blessed with all the love...

now, I'm in Kuantan...on 1 week mc...mom said i have to pantang...for at least 2 weeks...everyday menu, black pepper is a must....hahaa...not bad...im starting to love it. =D

p/s: Nizam, thank you so much...i know i cant thank you enough...for ur support, ur love...I love you.